change

"God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference."

I'm one of those people who doesn't easily adjust to change/changes/changing. I admire those who can because it's somewhat impossible for me.

I honestly believe that I've been the same girl since the 7th grade, maybe slightly different because of certain experiences. I still have the same morals. If changed, only to make them more reasonable to this day and age. I'm still the quiet girl who keeps to herself, only speaking when being spoken to. I'll still listen to you 'til the sun rises if you have something on your mind. I'm still insecure, so insecure that it becomes an annoyance to people. I'm sorry. I still say sorry too much. I still giggle when I'm too shy to say anything, I giggle a lot. I'm still her, only a little more educated and experienced. However, staying the same can't all be good right? I've seen people change. Drastically. Some totally disregarding the morals they used to have. Then, not wanting to accept how different they are.. I'm the one accused of changing. but I really haven't. How could I? I can't let go of my past. Because of staying the same quiet girl, I've had no choice but to watch everyone else around me change while I was left behind. I don't want to be left behind anymore.

I need to teach myself or, rather, force myself to accept change. It's inevitable. I have to accept those I have in my life, and those I don't anymore. No matter how big of a heart break that could be. I need to change..

How do I change?