love love go away ♪

It seems that over the past week the ideas of love, heartbreaks and relationships have taken over my life. It's amazing how a conversation of grad coming up and the dress I'm going to wear could do 360 flips and swerve it's way to the topic of first loves and why they didn't work out.

Regrets are always part of the conversation. I, myself, have a ton of regrets (relationship-wise). There were relationships I should have persued and some that I shouldn't have started. I find it so silly and elementary-like that one of the people I've fallen hardest for, had/has no slightest clue of it. I just never built up the courage to say anything. (Maybe it'll spill out as one of those drunken moments haha). They say that you shouldn't regret your past because everything of the past makes you who you are today. However, I'm not really sure if I'd like to be the person I am today. I'm shy, insecure and vulnerable.. maybe if I could go back in time and fix the situations I regret, I'd be different. Better.

As conceited as it may sound.. I believe I deserve the best, everyone does. Well not the best, I guess.. what's best for me. I think I should know who I belong with, especially who I'm compatible with, no matter what anyone else thinks. At least if I make a mistake choosing the right person, it'll be my own mistake. No one else's. I'm aware I may be letting something good go, but I've thought about it and I have no regrets. It's not what's best for me.

That being said, I'm fully content with my love life right now. After all, every woman is in the exact love life she wants. So, to those who read this: love when you feel like it, don't insist on what's not meant to be, make your own mistakes.. and let me do the same.