good luv

It hardly seems fair that I keep getting the drama aspect of a "relationship" without the reassurance that there'll be the good lovin' that follows, like everyone else gets.

Let me try to explain. I get the crying, the screaming, the pouting, the never ending apologies, sleepless nights, loss of appetite, regret, the "it's not me it's you" type conversations, even the conversations that begin with "we have to talk", the listening to slow jams on repeat, the shoulda woulda couldas & what ifs, the "running to my friends for advice", the "hey, what went wrong with you two?" from perfect strangers, the avoiding eye contact as we walk passed eachother, the guilt, pretty much the whole shibang ...... all without the need to change my facebook status. (haaaaaaa)

in short, i've met mr. highschoolsweetheart, mr. confusing, mr. shyguy, mr. taken?! & mr. comedian and only got to feel the pain of the relationship without the rainbows&butterflies. If I have to go through this.. I want rainbows n' butterflies.