keep on keepin on

i need to continue moving forward. dwelling in pain, "what if's" and "shoulda, woulda, couldas" isn't helping me live. admist the rants of "shit not being fair/how could you" while it may be true, it wont help me get back up after being pushed, kicked and spat on (metaphorically speaking). i need to stop depending on whoever else for my happiness and get back on my two feet myself. the only person i can really depend on is myself, especially after the last episode of my soap opera life. i'm going to spend my time not focussing on those who hurt me but rather on those who genuinely care. they are deserving of my time. yes, deserving. because i am so much more than ive given myself credit for. (i'm not arrogant. i understand my self worth.) also, i'm going to be selfish. i'm going to focus on my happiness and well being rather than what others might think of me. i don't care anymore. i'm going to surround myself with good people. things can only go up from there...