the first cut is the deepest

people always say that the first cut is the deepest as if some kind of guaranteed compensation for the pain you're going through. they seem to really believe that it gets easier or less painful the second, third, fourth time around which i guess might be true but not entirely. living through the wrongs that people have done against me, i don't really even think that i've become stronger because of it. i think that i've just grown accustomed to the cuts, scrapes, the bruises.. so really, the saying should be: all the cuts will be as deep as the first but not as painful.. because after a while you don't really feel anything at all.

(wtf. saddest shit i ever wrote)