why do i allow myself to feel this way? i say allow because i really believe that happiness is a choice. but yet i allow myself to feel alone, confused, lost.. why? i would probably be a mental case if i lost my mom last night. i know i should be thankful that God gave her so many miracles last night and i am but i still feel sad and maybe a little empty. i should stop thinking about what could have happened and be thankful for what did.
i should.. but why do i feel this way right now? i need a pick me up.
i thought drowning myself in my school work would help me out but it hasn't. please let tomorrow be a better day.
i love you mom. i love you God.. thank you both.