I'm a child. A 20 year old woman child. Though I'd like to be responsible and independent in terms of living my own life, I really can't say that I am. I don't think I'll ever grow out of the shelter I'm desperately holding on to, or I really don't want to. I don't doubt that I'm moving forward but I'm doing it at a much slower pace than a lot of the people my age. I like being home because it makes me feel safe but where am I going to go in life playing everything safe? I'm just stuck. I can't imagine myself growing up and that scares me a little. Physically, I'm 20 but mentally, I just want to crawl into a ball and cuddle up next to my mom while watching movies that make me laugh.

I know that it's time to grow up, I'm just not too sure I know how.