a friend asked me if i was happy with the life i was living right now.. i could have pulled the usual "i love where i am today because ... bs bs bs" but i didn't. i figured she was a close enough friend that i didn't have to hide the way i felt.
so i said no.
then she said why?
i think my reasons came up to three main things:
1. my lack of motivation
2. lack of a boyfriend (lol.. i'll explain)
3. my lack of real friendships
i want to be motivated and persistent in my weight goals actually, i'd rather say health goals. i don't want to be as thin as a stick but i want to be at a healthy weight that i would feel good about myself or maybe it's more about my self esteem. i don't know. i want to be more motivated!
the lack of a boyfriend thing isn't because i actually want a boyfriend.. i just want someone to show to my family so they stop bugging me about getting one. lol.. okay and maybe someone to whisper sweet nothings into my ear. hahaha. jk.
i want more friends that i would be able to .. count on? or something like that. i don't know how to explain it. i have very few ride or die type friends but too many hang out buddies. i want some deeper shit.
other than those reasons, my life is a-okay!